All my notebooks are full. I have a stack of them. Maybe 8 since I began working with the moon phases shortly after Griffin was born. Pages full of dreams, desires, plans, and pathways. In hindsight the blueprint of the steps I meandered, ran, and backtracked to get to where I stand today. The scribbled-on-pages of my notebooks were words I could barely release because in some way jotting them on the pages made them more concrete, more painful to know I held them in my heart. Pages filled with hope, new moon rituals, full moon rituals + garden plans. A hodgepodge of learnings, knowings, herbal notes, tarot meanings, and gratitude lists. A patchwork of my recipes for living. 

I often think I only get anywhere I’m going because I run through my fear. In motherhood, piecing together time and action towards my dreams here and there. Today I want to explore how to move with slow + courageous intention into where I’m going next. I will sit with the upcoming timelines, 2 weeks until the full moon in Scorpio, 3 months, 6 months to find clarity around next steps.

This week I had an energy reading that blew open my heart and mind to the possibilities that lie within me. So grateful to have another be a mirror to reflect what I cannot often see in myself. Her words are reverberating in my mind today as I step into ritual “take in more light” as a directive for healing. What actions, thoughts, and rituals feed the light within you? She highlighted for me healing needed for my root, sacral and solar plexus chakras. I know the healing from this session will be unfolding over the next couple months.

Today on this new moon in Aries, there is no blank pages in my notebook for another word, another dream + another plan. There is no more space. In some way it feels like an ultimate fresh start. So today I scribble my intentions for the next two weeks to tuck into the pages of my next notebook.

I haven’t had a moon alone in so many moons and so a new moon in Aries, the sign of the self feels fortuitous. The space to truly dive into my self, the space to break down, to nourish myself + to have the space to release the old to birth the new. How can I take care of my self so I can be of more service to my family, my community + those who come to share in this space?

An aries new moon to feels like a push and pull between the sun and the moon. Aries a sign of fire + rebirth, the solar plexus + a new moon an inward time to plant new seeds. This is a moon to dream. A moon to plan. A moon to burn up the doubts and fears with courageous action. A moon to step into your power. A moon to learn the next layer of your self.

On this new moon, I’m sinking into the planning phase. In this space, I’m looking forward to the month ahead, reworking the website with friend + creative Jess from The Wildcraft, a new interview feature called Garden Folk and new blog posts.

Some items I’ve been loving for deeper grounding rituals for the moon cycles are Crystals: The Stone Deck, Moon Bath: Bathing Rituals and Recipes for Relaxation + Vitality and the Moon Book from Sarah Faith Gottesdiener.

On this rainy new moon these words are washing over me:

It’s Raining in Honolulu by Joy Harjo

There is a small mist at the brow of the mountain,

each leaf of flower, of taro, tree and bush shivers with ecstasy.

And the rain songs of all the flowering ones who have called for the rain can be found there, flourishing beneath the currents of singing.

Rain opens us, like flowers, or earth that has been thirsty for more than a season. We stop all of our talking, quit thinking, or blowing sax to drink the mystery.

We listen to the breathing beneath our breathing.

This is how the rain became rain, how we became human.

The wetness saturates everything, including the perpetrators of the second overthrow. We will plant songs where there were curses.

How are you honoring this new moon?